ur life,our life

Why we prefer the situations which hurts us? Why i always trust the wrong people? There is sth which appeals to me..every time again and again the same. My blood boils when i find myself doing the same mistakes.I'm trying always to find the best paradise for my heart.I'm trying to get lost in my mind and my thoughts but i must discover the real reason which gets me down! And when i'll find it,i promise,that i'll change...like the moon...one time it's the most beautiful thing in the sky and the other it scares u just the little light which has.. But this little light it would shine forever in my heart!It is the hopes and the lost dreams that i have made and the other have thrown them away...
One day i will reach them..and then my life would surely change.. I would find the start of my eternal life..<3